Have you ever started a project, put it down and found it hard to pick up again? That’s exactly what happened to me with my daughter’s Unicorn Dreams blanket (a free pattern by cute crochet makes). I started it last summer, when, unbeknown to me at the time, I was showing symptoms of Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. Although I was making good progress on it, I came to a grinding halt with it as my diagnosis went on. Partly down to finding everything hard to deal with, and partly down to the fact I’d reached the 25 tricky rainbow bobble squares, I stopped working on it and packed it away in my craft room.
The blanket yarn and completed squares stayed in my craft room for months-I just couldn’t bear to work on it as it reminded me of the diagnosis process. A couple of weeks before my treatment ended, I decided I wanted to work on it again, but with some modifications to the pattern. One of the things stopping me from picking it up again was the fact I needed to make a lot more of the rainbow squares. Whilst they are beautiful, they each take a long time to make and require a lot of sewing in of ends (my pet hate). I wanted to make the blanket larger than the one in the pattern, so I actually needed 32 of those squares. I wasn’t even enjoying making them, and what is the point in a hobby if you’re not enjoying it?
I decided to use the pattern for the bobbles, but make each square in only one colour. After a little playing with stitch counts to make the border narrower, I successfully made a square I was happy with and which didn’t make me grumpy. My motivation was back (at least until I had to untangle all of the yarn in the bag-all 8 colours!) and I had a plan. I drew up a sketch of how I thought the squares could be laid out so that I knew how many of each colour to make. They aren’t quite as pretty or fancy as the original ones, although I think they will complement the much more detailed applique squares quite nicely.
My plan is to have the blanket completed before the end of the summer holidays. (If we are still in lockdown, will we even know where school ends and summer holidays begin? Who knows?) I have other projects on the go, so I am only working on it intermittently, but at least I’m working on it again. I’d left it so long I didn’t even know which size hook to use! Thank goodness for photos I’d taken on my phone to refer back to.
I also have a scarf that I worked on when waiting for appointments, and even during my first chemotherapy (I haven’t touched it since then). I hate that scarf now for all the memories it holds, and it isn’t very long, so it will be frogged and hopefully the yarn will be turned into something more cheery. Isn’t it funny how we work more than just yarn into each project we make? Hopefully this blanket will be full of happier things now!